First love*-My indescribable happy ending -______-

I can’t picture his face in my head anymore now. 

I met Mike during my freshman’s year at Gunderson. I have always thought he was really attractive, cute, cool, friendly, and has nice style. He was an upper-classman whom I respected and liked. We knew each other since my friends are friends to him. I can act myself comfortably when I’m with my friends, but to those i don’t know well, I’m very shy. Therefore, I could never brought myself to say hi to him especially when he was always hanging out with people I don’t know. There was no reason for us to talk to each other.  Until one time, out of no where, he said hi to me. And the day after, when I just got out of class, Mike was hanging out with my friends, and he ran over to said hi to me, and talked for a while. As we talked, I realized that he was also shy and quiet in a way. Gradually after that day, we became friendlier; and talked more often to each other. He was very different from me: more mature, outgoing, doesn’t say stupid things, and good at sports. He can do many things that I could never do then. More than just simply like, I looked up to him and respected him a lot. The only similarity we shared was our passion for asian music. But my style of music and his was also different. While he listen to a lot of love songs that goes in slow melodies, those kinds of song simply put me into sleep. In other word, I guess he was more romantic than i am. Despite all the difference, talking to him make me happy. 

Later, I realized that he had a girlfriend. She was also pretty, smart, friendly and nice, better than me in every aspect. Even though it was a little disappointing to find out, I didn’t stop liking him. To me, dating the guy i like wasn’t important; top priority is to have fun, and since I had fun, it didn’t matter. I couldn’t tell Mike I like him, so I told him I respected him and look up to him very much. I didn’t want anyone to notice I like him. So sometimes I make up excuses and avoid conversations so that it wouldn’t look like I look forward to talking to him. But in my head I was regretting it. 

Then summer vacation came. I got a job at a community center and made many new friends. I was also busy with a college class. And eventually I unconsciously forgot about Mike. We still chat online from time to time accept I couldn’t remember his face anymore. I was also more confident when talking to him. A month after summer vacation, he broke up with his girlfriend. I met him in the mall a while after that. We talked for a while and he said he like me and asked if I would be his girlfriend. But everything also end here....

Consciously or unconsciously, people are always yearning for things that they don’t have. I probably liked Mike because he was out of my reach. But the moment Mike asked me out, I realized that I don’t like him anymore. So I told him I really respect him as my uper-classman. I was NEVER regretting my decision since i found out he got another girlfriend about one week after.......fesurgytaggajg%^#^^%$&^%